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Dr. King is Dead…

February 7, 2016
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mlk statue

“out of a mountain of despair, a stone of hope”

and something very strange is going on…

Black people are being judged by the color of their skin…

not the content of their character…

It’s why so many black people are being murdered…

and all of us are targets in this 21st century…

 

 

 

 

 

who’s going to save us now?

in prison

 

 


it’s black history month in STL…

February 7, 2016
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Sister_Slave

Because I’m brown-skinned, people keep insisting that I’m uneducated, unemotional and inarticulate. The reality is most likely I’m better educated, more caring and articulate than pretty much everyone I’ve run into.

This same problem exists among my own people. The fair-skinned people make the same assumptions that the white people do and my own people, fair-skinned, my hue and darker assume that the only thing I’m good for is to be passed around like so much dead meat. For the most part, all of them ignore me, until I get angry, not because I’m a black woman (and stereotypically angry), but because I’ve figured out I’m being ignored. I consider this to be very insulting.

The women suspect me because I don’t have children. The men suspect me because I don’t have children.

The women don’t know how to be gracious and welcoming and the men don’t know how to be kind and considerate.

Too many people want to stick their head in the sand and keep it there. Too many are afraid to break away and do something different.

Despite my appearance, I very much have feelings and desire to be listened to, loved and cared for just like anyone else. I also don’t want to have to “fit in” in order to be accepted.

What’s pissing me off is that most of the people I’ve run into here in STL behave this way and none of them have an understanding of how narrow-minded, racist and bigoted this is. Pretty sad state of affairs.

in prison


on being michael brown jr.

November 30, 2014
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one white cop.

one young black man.

one with a gun.

one with his fists.

Darren Wilson.

Michael Brown, Jr.

 

In the shortened version of this story, the white cop did not sustain enough damage to justify killing an unarmed black man.  If he looked like Rodney King or Reginald Denny, I would be able to understand his shooting this young man to protect himself from being beaten to death. Looking at the pictures that were taken of him at “hospital”, left me shaking my head in wonder.

In the long, drawn out version told to the alleged Grand Jury, this officer feared for his life at the hands of a big, black teenager. There’s a possibility that this young man generally used his substantial size to bully and coerce others into doing his bidding. His parents said he was a gentle giant, but the video of him picking on the smaller adult in the store he took the cigarillos from, you can extrapolate that this young man did know he was big and burly and could get what he wanted by using his size to do so.

By the way, the cop was well-coached by his lawyers. He had to tell his story as straight-faced, unemotional and neutral-voiced as possible in order to be credible, even if he was lying through his teeth.

In the next version (mine), you have to wonder if the white cop was thinking with his primal brain when he kept pulling the trigger because Brown Jr. just wouldn’t stop coming and Wilson knew that if he just kept shooting, he could make this big-ass bear-child stop walking towards him with murder in his eyes. In my version, the question arises “was Wilson afraid or was he playing target practice with this young man?” In my version, I would also include the question of why Wilson couldn’t take a couple of punches from this unarmed black man and if he did take  couple of punches, why isn’t he walking around with at least one black eye, some knuckle-shaped purple-black bruises, a broken or dislocated jaw or a thoroughly damaged ear? If he was afraid for his life, does that mean that the slaps he probably got from Brown did, at least, dislocate his jaw? To me, that much damage might justify this officer shooting this unarmed black man to death.

The pictures I’ve seen of Wilson, there’s not enough facial damage done to warrant shooting Brown to death. The grand jury should have found probable cause to indict, based on the evidence. There should also be questions as to why Wilson was “walking” shots up this young man’s body. Was it target-practice? A well-placed couple of shots to the knees or femur would have gone a long way towards putting this young man down and preserving his life, extra “witnesses” be damned.

The question this so-called Grand Jury didn’t ask: why didn’t Wilson shoot to disable (a knee cap, femur or ankle) instead of taking the life? Was he thinking with his primal brain (kill the threat/or run like hell) or with his logical brain (play target practice on the n-word and make him suffer).

It appears to me that cops are no longer attempting to disable or maim, they are killing young black men, even if the circumstances don’t warrant it. They are not being trained to recognize when the primal brain is trying to take over to end a confrontation at all costs, instead of the logical brain which would calculate where to put a bullet to stop or slow further mayhem from happening. I would rather see an alive human being, missing an arm or leg rather than see a human being lying in the street unarmed and dead.

Some time in the not too-distant future, we’re going to find out that the 3 black jurors probably caved in to the 9 white jurors. Blacks here in MO are notoriously afraid of white people for absolutely no good reason. The blacks here keep giving whites some sort of power over what they say and do and always seem to be acquiescing to them, even to the detriment of their own opinions, ideas and lifestyles.

I think it’s way past time for black people to “stand their ground” and demand to be treated and given the same privileges as the white people in Missouri currently enjoy. There is economic opportunity everywhere in this state if everyone would realize the only color that matters is the color of your money.

It’s time for Black folks to stop ”stepping off the sidewalk” and “getting out of the way” and to demand respect, fair treatment and equal rights from whites in Missouri.

A leader is needed who’ll tell it like it is and confront the issues that are holding race relations in the state of Missouri hostage.

Black people here are living and working as if it is still the 1950s and Jim Crow is alive and well. The only place it’s okay to sit up front is on the bus or the MetroLink and only in a seat by yourself, because a white person will not sit next to you.

Missouri needs a governor who is not suffering from “tunnel” vision when it comes to what is really going on among both groups of his constituents. Missouri needs politicians who are aware and not afraid to confront and speak about what is holding this state and its’ people back from becoming an important player in the world market.

Missouri really needs to stop trying to keep the world off its’ doorstep and allow real progress to be had both in education, economics and racial equality, access to information and genuine communication. If MO wants to be a player in the world market, its’ leaders need to stop controlling “outsiders” access to creating businesses and come up with a plan to properly educate all  of its’ citizens.

MO needs a leader that is willing to welcome business ventures from outside the state that would help the state to grow and truly enter the 21st century global market.  It needs to have leaders who are non-exclusive in who they will deal with or communicate with in this current global environment.

When will MO become “the state that’s too busy to hate”

and invite the world to its’ front door?


Top 10 St. Louis’ Discrimination Tips

March 14, 2012
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  1. Lose interest in a subject when a Black person wants to share their experiences.
  2. Don’t be-friend someone based on that person’s shade of skin.
  3. Don’t speak to someone because they didn’t go to your high school or grow up in your neighborhood.
  4. Mistreat a dark-skinned person just because they’re dark-skinned.
  5. A black person gets fired from a job for dating outside their race.
  6. A black person gets fired from a job for not being “submissive” enough or for “challenging” white authority.
  7. Watch a black person get wrongfully fired and not say a damn thing about it to anyone.
  8. Keep changing the rules of the game/job/activity to antagonize the black person, keep off balance and doubtful; belittling a black person’s talent and intelligence to keep that person from being successful and confident in their abilities.
  9. Refuse to sit next to a black person on a bus or train or stand behind a black person while in line or refuse to let a black person go through a door in front of you.
  10. Companies spew bullshit about a diverse workforce; they’ve got a natural blonde, a brunette and a redhead, each of whom sports a DD cup and no taller than 5’ 7”.

And by the way, these don’t just apply for white people, black folks here suffer from “crab in a barrel” syndrome and do the same thing to each other every day. Some of us are just as bad as the white folks. If STL doesn’t let go of this bigotry and racist nonsense, it will always be a car culture with an inferiority complex. You cannot be a prosperous city when people don’t spend time being honest with each other and having a dialog on how to exterminate the mighty big elephant in the room. It’s been trampling this city into dust for more than 50 years.


this just in…

January 15, 2012
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Saint Louis Missouri is the last bastion of the persecuted racist. It seems to me that every redneck in the continental US is living here in STL and all of them are working together to run as many black people out-of-town as possible and especially those of us who are smarter than they are.  They do it by lying for and protecting each other even to the point of stealing thousands of dollars and getting people fired who should be promoted.

If black folks in STL would get their heads out of their asses (nix all that “oh woe is me” bullshit) and work together, we could force a change of attitudes in this town. They can’t fire everyone, especially if we learn what our rights are (the EEOC is a fucking joke!) and then act on those rights.

Wake up all you handkerchief head, field hand niggers! Get together, educate yourselves and then tell the white man exactly what he can do with his racist bullshit.


A State of Stupidity

August 10, 2011
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In a state of stupidity does change begin with a whisper?

Does it really?

Here in STL it’s time for some shouting, fist pumping and name calling!

Black folks here need to figure out how to beat the system–not by robbing, stealing, lying or cheating, but by unlearning what they’ve been taught.

Stop yass suhing and yass ma’ming and speak up for yourselves–there should be hoards of folx in the now empty libraries–getting educated on what to say and how to say it; speaking correct English and writing legible sentences; learning the rules and using them to better yourself.

Here’s one beef: we need to lynch that damn rap music.  It makes our young black women then they’re only good as hoochies, ho’s, hookers, hypes or heifers popping out babies non-stop.

Our young black men thing they’re gangsters, greasers, goons and goof-off with saggy, look like shit-filled pants, dragging ass out!

Pull up your damn pants and go get a job!

Being educated is not poison, it’s a way up and out!

Folks here have been taught well, but not well-educated.

They’ve been taught snobbery, snipery, begging, borrowing, stealing and stoning. They’ve been taught to step away, step down, step back and step off — to sit down and shut up.

They’ve been taught bigotry, racism, prejudice and disrespect of their fellow-man.

Get together and learn:  how to do something different and better.

Get together and stand up for yourselves; speak up when you see a fellow human being mistreated, slandered and lied about.

Step out of that “where did you go to high school” bullshit and open yourselves up to “where do you want to go on the planet?” or maybe even to the moon?

Now I understand how Rosa Parks felt that day she refused to give up her seat on the bus.

If you engage in any behavior that is disrespectful of others, you need to be re-educated. Unlearn your racist or submissive, subversive behavior.

If you’re white and won’t shake a black person’s hand, you are un-educated.

If you’re black and you think another mere human is better than you, because of skin color, you’re un-educated.

If you’re white and you won’t sit next to or say “excuse me” to a person of color on the Metro or bus, then you’re un-educated.

If you’re black and don’t say PLEASE or THANK YOU, you’re un-educated.

Black folks need to get together and learn the rules of the game and when one of us is being persecuted, picked on, put out, put down, enough voices raised in protest will shut the assholes down. Enough voices/notes/letters in support will kill the current incarnation of JIM CROW dead, dead, dead.

Did you get fired? Was it fair? Did the company follow its’ own rules? Do you even know what the rules are? Go to the library and pick up a couple of books on the subject of federal employment laws.

Stop sitting around pissing and moaning about how bad you been treated — go get educated and un-learn all the handkerchief-head, dumb darky bullshit you’ve been taught!


The back of my head

July 23, 2011
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…you’d rather see the back of my head and not the back of my hand.

You are now reading the words of the last civilized woman in the united state of Missouri!

Today’s subject?

POWERLESSNESS!

It’s a disease that is running rampant in the streets of St. Louis, Missouri. It’s the reason the city’s North side is mostly derelict, abandoned and burned down!

Powerlessness is the reason why people of excellence are unemployed while people of mediocrity are working!

Powerlessness is what causes youngsters to vandalize, break car windows and steal things that don’t belong to them!

Pathetic powerlessness is the fact that this city has a serious problem with racism, mediocrity, apathy and a dangerous amount of carelessness!

The media keeps touting the lie that this state is the most caring in the country, but you can’t walk the streets at night or drive your car or take a bus without some asshole trying to deprive you of your personal belongings, put uninvited hands on you, or going into your home without your express permission.

Powerlessness is the meth and heroin epidemic that seems to be taking over neighborhood by neighborhood across the state.

I’ve been living here since 1992 and the one unique thing I’ve discovered is that STL is a very mean-spirited city!  Having spent formative years living among civilized people on the West coast, it is something that reeks and oozes out of the pores of the people you pass by in the street in the city.

It’s being victimized, one powerless person over another for no other reason than being powerless.

A book I read that was written back when Black folks were considered less than human would be a blueprint for the way things are here!  The book? Hurry Sundown, written by K.B. Gilden.  It’s a two book novel and has a lot of appropriate content that speaks to the issues walking around in the 21st century!

A passage from the book reads as follows:

I been rebuked and  I been scorned.  I been abused and I been stomped. I been flogged and burned and hanged and shot. I have my eyes gouged out and my guts kicked in and my hands chopped off and my sex passed around for a souvenir. My women been raped from the Congo to the Mississippi, my children been slandered and slapped down and set upon and spit at. I been blowed up, chased out, jailed, chained, enslaved and robbed. And I’m still supposed to love the white man. . .”

As far as I’m concerned, love went out the window, when I had this idiot who didn’t know how to do his job, tell me how to do mine and when I took an exception to his inept instruction, he told a lot of lies to a lot of people and got me fired.

A good move on his part, because now “the last Black civilized woman” is ready to unleash her acid-tongued alter ego, M. Alicia Davis.

For a short period of time, I became powerless until I realized it was my responsiblity to kick, scream and fight my way out of that notion.  It was time for me to retrieve my self-respect and the courage and dignity I was taught by my people.

If what I’ve written has offended you, then perhaps you should take a very long look at yourself and your deep-down reason for being offended.

If it has to do with the words on this page and the color of my skin (which you didn’t know until now), then that makes you a racist!

Whatever it is that pisses you off, consider this: Powerlessness is what is keeping STL from participating in the big wide world right now.  It is why the buildings are falling apart on the North side and people don’t shake hands here, especially if it’s a black person and a white person! (what’s up with that?)

Powerlessness is why people who are Black and smart are always one step away from the street and people who are something else and mediocre are running things.  Somebody needs to step up and take a real hard look at the big picture, peel off the dead scab and get to the heart of the underlying racial divide currently killing this beautiful city!